It hurts, loving the wrong person

Greetings guys! I just want to share with the world my own lesson of love and I know am not the first and neither not the last.

It’s crazy, the way love blinds me.
The way i give someone everything,my time, your attention, your heart and in the end, they treat it like nothing.
I loved her.

Not the kind of love people throw around in casual texts or sweet emojis. No. I loved her with depth, with loyalty. I gave her my best. And maybe that was my mistake.

From the very beginning, she didn’t want anyone else around me.
She said it was “just jealousy,” that she “cared too much.”
But slowly, one by one, the girls in my life disappeared friends, my coursemate, even people I barely talked to. Every time someone reached out to me, she questioned it, argued, got emotional… until I stopped replying. My greatest pain is that I had val not to love any girls but she convince me to it , after my serial broken and fail relationship. i found a girl who love me for me and she made me loose her 😭

And I let her win.
Because I thought… that’s what love is.

One faithful day she told me something that changed everything in me .

I'M PREGNANT

The words hit me like lightning. Confusion, fear, hope, and responsibility crashed into each other. I wasn’t ready, but I was willing.
I stepped up. I adjusted everything my plans, my peace all to be there for her. she lied to me for 2 months and some weeks, each time I called her on phone she will yell at me telling me that she in pain, that I have been a storm in her way and I should send her 40, 000 for her up keep and every week I had been sent her some money for her to take care of herself. at some point she blocked my number at night, busy my calls and when I asked her why she stop picking my calls just because she is a distance away from me. I woke up one morning to see a text on my phone that I should give her a space for no reason.

nevertheless, in all this. I never stop loving her or care for her.
Then she said she needed space.
Not once twice.
I respected it. Gave her time, even though it hurt. I know the space asked for , is a break up completely.
I stayed patient because I thought that’s what love demanded.

somehow, I feel it is a pay back from my ex to me . because she was the one love me the most but I couldn't reciprocate the love to her and I keep on telling her that she is not the one for me and me going for the one that is my kind of girl, leave me with reasons to say that . at times nature doesn't bring to us the opposite of what we demand of it .

 imagine seeing this text on my phone last night before I go to bed.

“Don’t call me. I’m with my boyfriend for the weekend.”

I froze.

I read it again. And again.

She had told me she loved me.
That she was pregnant.
That she needed space.
But in the end, all she needed… was someone else.

And here I am the guy who gave her everything.
Watching the girl I truly love in the arms of another.
After she chased away everyone else from my life.
After she lied to me.
After she walked away with no guilt in her voice, no regret in her eyes.

It hurts.
God, it hurts.

But I’ll survive. I always do.

And one day, when she scrolls through her past and remembers the man who loved her the way no one else could maybe then she’ll realize...

She didn’t lose a lover.
She lost a home.

Written from the heart.

Feel free to share your thoughts below.
Resteem if you’ve ever been betrayed

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