The Promise Sunday Freewrite - The Most Important Promise I Have Ever Made
The most important promise I have ever made was to myself. I have struggled with low self-esteem, anxiety, depression, etc my whole life. I have always engaged in a lot of negative self talk. Blaming myself and punishing myself, physically and mentally, kept me stuck in an unhappy and unproductive life. I wanted to break free from this self loathing and unhappiness.
Recently I feel like I have finally achieved freedom from self hate and, I believe, the most important step in doing that was promising myself that I would no longer physically harm myself nor beat myself up mentally. I promised to work on stopping my negative self talk and it has been a long journey, but I'm glad I've taken it.
I practiced over and over saying nice things to myself until it wasn't uncomfortable anymore. I caught myself when I would start my negative self talk loop and re-frame my thoughts. It has taken years to gain this freedom, but I'm glad I made that very important promise to myself and stuck with it no matter how hard it got at times.
I am curious why you had low self-esteem. A lot of bad happened to me but not even as a little child I ever thought it was because of me. It's typical for women to punish themselves and for men to blame others :(
It's good to make a promise to yourself; in a way I did the same (no one needed to make me feel miserable).
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I was told by my mother that I was stupid, fat, ugly, embarrassing, lazy, etc. and I internalized all of that and then took over for her once I became an adult. My low self confidence lead to poor relationships in school and I was bullied badly. It was a self fulfilling prophecy until I broke free from it. Thanks for reading my post!
Well, I can tell you that is exactly what my mother said about me before she ordered to get the dogleash (we had 3: 2 chains, one leather I had the freedom to choose one of them). Of about 60% of her vocubulary I had no idea what the meaning if those words were.
Btw I cannot say school and teachers were any better, nor the neighbourhood, child security or worse the police.
Still, I never thought it was me, no matter how hard she tried to break me and brainwash. Why not?
Who knows I am more stubborn, just found her pitiful, a dangerous person or not interesting enough to have around.
And you know what most likely the truth is? That of all things she said you were the opposite! Something for sure she couldn't stand.
Poor relationships we all have. It's hard to tell who is honest and uses us. Humanity wears a masks and some even ten. 🥴
So this is what you do. You write daily 3 thing you are good at! Make small labels and write on each of them. You will see before you know it you have a room filled with positive labels.
Telationships are always difficult. The thing is that people invest more in those they fear and their phone/bots than humans. Social skills are 0, but I can tell you if you are a good observer you will find one or two great, funny, understanding and loveable enough to invest in.
I wish you a great day dreamgayle, remember there's no need to be a copy of someone, to fulfill someone else's whishes and you are more than perfect as you are.
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Between the ending of the first paragraph and the beginning of the second one. There is probably a story or, maybe more than one.
But, it is good that you kept the promise and it ended up well...
Wow, I really relate... when I left home at 18, I pretty much believed that my even breathing was just a waste of oxygen.
Well done for turning around your negative self-talk... I know how difficult that can be! My "inner critic" still shows up from time to time...
It's like an addiction, very hard to silence. Mine still shows up too it's just easier to shrug off now.
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