How are you all? I hope you are all doing very well by the grace of God. I am also doing very well by your prayers. I am going to start today's new post by greeting and congratulating all the brothers and sisters of 'ccs' on my behalf. Today I will share with you the feeling of becoming a first-time father. I hope you will know my feeling and understand a lot. So let's try to understand this beautiful feeling through the blog.

A boy means a life of struggle. As long as life goes on, it seems like a war, that is the war of life. Along with increasing age, the responsibilities on one's shoulders increase greatly. This includes the external life arrangement of the wife. After marriage, every boy dreams of building a beautiful family with his wife. The responsibility increases to support his wife and parents in his own family. So after marriage, he tries to have a beautiful family plan with his wife, become financially prosperous and then give birth to children. But that good fortune never happened to me. My life is going on as if against my will. I wanted to marry a good, talented girl. I know I can build a beautiful family with her and do a good job and she understands me. But the writing on my forehead cannot be refuted. There was someone on my forehead whose knowledge and intelligence are lower than those of fools. Still, I accepted her from the bottom of my heart as my wife and always wanted to build a beautiful family with her. But until today, I did not notice that she obeyed my commands and obeyed me. This is the biggest regret of a man's life. Anyway, the child was conceived within a month or two of marriage. Then the child was born within a year.

I stayed by my wife's side for four days from the day she gave birth. My wife was born at Gangni Taher Clinic. This moment was quite difficult for me. Because I wanted to become independent and have a child after two years and build a beautiful planned family. But it turns out that I didn't feel like having a child at my word. I had to have a child right after marriage at my wife's word. However, Alhamdulillah, the great creator blessed us with a daughter, which made me very happy. Because it seems that many people try to have a child late after marriage and do not have a child. I am very happy with my child, and even more happy that the great creator has blessed me with a healthy child. Please pray for my child, wherever he is, so that he is healthy, strong and well. I wanted to keep my child by my side all the time and raise him in my own way, but that never happens for various reasons. The main reason is that my wife left for her father's house with various excuses. That man never thinks that he has had many accidents before, but even after that, I put myself on the right path and followed my husband's words. My regret is that he never wants to be guided by my words.

Anyway, after becoming a Babu, I started thinking about how to raise him well. In such a situation, there was more tension because I had quit my school job. Meanwhile, my financial condition was completely ruined. At that time, my elder brother tried to help me by giving me twenty thousand taka. But I noticed that my wife's contradictory words made me feel bad, which I was forced to tell my brother. Later, my brother, after hearing all that, came with twenty thousand taka and left with 18 thousand taka and left me two thousand taka. Because there are several expenses starting from becoming a Babu, my brother wanted to bear them. In this regard, my brother was very supportive and kind. When my Babu was three months pregnant, my wife fell ill. My brother spent six thousand taka on his own responsibility to get my wife well. And the main reason for my wife's illness was that her younger sister had been poisoned and was hospitalized. While taking care of her younger sister, my wife and I felt very sick because we were not used to staying up all night in the hospital. I repeatedly told my wife that you don't have to stay in the hospital, you will get sick or the baby will be harmed. But my wife didn't listen to me because her younger sister had taken poison. Anyway, at that moment, my brother had spent six thousand taka on his illness. He had brought twenty thousand taka in a packet to spend at the time of the baby's birth and wanted to give it to me from home too. But I kept it with him and told him to pay it whenever he needed it.

After hearing the contradictory words from my wife, my brother did not agree to spend any more. However, after that, I was spending between the 2000 taka that he had given me and the 5,000 taka that I had. And in this way, in a moment, it turned out that for four days, while buying various medicines and essential items, I had to withdraw the money from my account and spend it. But even after spending this much, I hear false accusations that I do not spend anything. I do not take any responsibility for my child or wife. I tolerate a lot of things, but it becomes very difficult for me to tolerate false accusations. In fact, the one who suffers is the one who hears false accusations again. This is the truth. Still, I have to make a living, so I endure many things silently. I have to listen to both sides from the middle and endure many things. Please pray for my child. Through everything, may the child grow up to be a good human being and be raised with religious ideals.