My skin, rough, dry, and thin and its always has been
I have nothing much in mind to photograph with except yesterday when the late afternoon rays of the sun struck my knee and I just thought to shoot it with my camera phone because the natural light is a good thing to have when photographing things. I can only outdoor photography while going to and from the clinic inside of a moving car, so it is just bad that I have so little options to enjoy the capability of my camera phone.
So this is the result, I could have done better but this will do since I managed to capture how my skin looks like at close-up via magnification capability of my Smartphone which I chose for this purposes.
Well I am not that old but my skin is getting loose as years go by because in fact my skin is starting to sag a few years ago. I don't know but maybe because I lost a great deal of weight rather than gain over the past 23 plus years of being a dialysis patient. So I am like a donkey wearing the clothes of a cow or camel or which ever animal is bigger. So getting years in my life is one factor for my relatively loose skin which can be seen via magnification.
The thing is that I do not look like my age as you can always mistaken me for a skinny teenager and I always get surprised looks and reactions when people learned about my real age because both of my other brothers has white hair while the other one had developed it even at his high school years. Well I am not surprised as even some of my former high school classmates already have some white hairs.
Do I like white hairs? well the answer to that is no because it just means that my years are running-out and I always believe that I have a shorter life compared to normal people because obviously being a dialysis patient puts you in many risks considering that I myself have a viral liver disease and I am more than sure that it will be the one that will "unalive" rather than the other complications associated with being a dialysis patient.
Anyway back to my skin, it is always rough compared to the skin of other people. It has been like that ever since I went to being a dialysis patient. The fluid imbalance was to blame aside from my body is not changing where in fact it went small because of a long time appetiteloss and weakening of the bones. The only thing is that my skin didn't get too dark compared to the skin of other dialysis patients which I believe was the effect of using vitamin C.
That is why I think that my skin will get darker now because I am no longer using vitamin C but I just hope that the Moringa powder that I am consuming daily will have enough antioxidants to basically prevent my skin for darkening. A long time ago I am quite vain on how I look and I even planned to purchase a whitening cream and tried to work-up my muscles considering that I am already sick and is always having muscle cramps due to drinking water a lot as my mother force me too in her belief that it is good for me. I did got results after doing push-ups for two weeks and for once I admired my body as a result considering that I am just like a very slim teenager at that time and still have a normal appearance but enough to attract the attention of the opposite sex.
I always feel and look attractive before but my body changed for the worse before it peaked. If only I haven't suffered this health condition I might be able to practice my vanity for looking and feeling great with my appearance. Now there are no more things to be desired on my physical being because I am in the lowest of the low in terms of attraction by the opposite sex and of course I find it frustrating because I am not able to live like other men who raise a family which still works here in my country although I know that raising children in particular is harder in these times because of social media influence corrupting the minds of children even right before they speak. That and the economic hardships associated in raising a family is truly a factor on why raising a family now is harder than ever before.
Photography device: Vivo X200 PRO
Camera Sensors: 50 MP Main Camera
Camera Mode: Tele Macro, Photo
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I don't believe the skin of a camel is too big. It fits perfectly. Why on earth you want a white skin? White is unhealthy. I wonder if your skin doesn't need a scrub. If it's try most likely it doesn't peel off which makes the old skin cells stay and colour it more dark then your skin in reality is,
If it comes to dry skins I always had it, it runs in the family and at some times it's way worse (fall, winter, spring LOL).
A cream or body lotion also may help (may, nothing is sure since I believe that what causes a dry skin also is caused by the "inside" (hormones, digestion, a lack of minerals, stress or.... ).
If it comes to relationships, friend, stop saying you are the lowest of the low, That will not do your ego good and it's not the way to promote yourself!
I am surprised how good your phone can take photos, but I don't believe there's a need to post many who are basically the same,
It's strange to look at the biggest organ we have.... we even breathe with it which is also harder with a dry skin.
I hope the dialyse went well, A great day!
No I don't really want a white skin but a fairer skin, it is because before I wanted to stand-out from the crowd like I guess some people wants but it is just me. Now I do not much car what I look like because I am like half-chewed by a Cat where people might buy a ticket just to look at me in a Circus show.
Had my backbone and the neck bone not affected by degeneration, I might make a good use of my face by emphasizing my Lionface condition with some of my teeth having an implant of fangs and then with matching whiskers. My hair will be just easy to style too to highlight my lionface appearance.
But it is not me, I do not like attention because I fear crowds as if threats will come from them at any time. But my longing to look good in appearance before was based on my observation that if you look good and important, people will respect you.
I already proved that already by being looking unimportant and physically pitiful because many people had already not treated me like a normal person and not taken seriously when I raise my concern, saying something, or talking to someone like in the hospital to a doctor at some instances.
Truly appearance matters a whole lot and unfortunately it is one of my issues that makes my life feel a little bit harder.
Anyway, I think you are right, I would just post few photos to save me some time. It is just I always think to post it rather than delete it in my phone. I already deleted lots and most of them are now in the blockchain.
I thank God that dialysis now is more bearable than ever before. No more feelings of uneasiness, pain, and lightheadedness. Correcting my blood's acidity improved many things in my body.
Thank you for your time Miss @wakepkitty.pal @wakeupkitty I appreciate you so much 🌹🌹🌹
I understand to the fullest what you mean. If it comes to it only animals don't care what we look like unlike people but good or not good looking - if it comes to it everyone struggles and we all hope for love, real love or at least people who like us for what we are and we can have a good laugh with. Do they exist?
Perhaps but you won't find many since today everyone is behind a screen and not willing to invest in relationships of any kind.
More is needed than good looks only. There are plenty of good looking people I find creepy (and others to) which has to do with a certain attitude. Being an introvert will not help in your situation (or shy) but if you would be an extreme extrovert people easily find you annoying as well so what is left? A dose of luck?
For sure you have heard of Stephen Hawking and I just read an article about his life. He did live way longer than expected and has been married twice and more than just a few months. How did he do that? What kind of marriage had he or had those women?
The article I read is in Dutch perhaps you can translate it?
https://www.quest.nl/natuur/geologie/a25627349/stephen-hawking-biografie/
Like you I delete many photos too. I can't save everything but I also don't see any need to post everything. Make it yourself a bit easier friend.
It's good to hear the dialysis is more bearable.
How is your back?
Blessings to you
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