How I Reprogramed My Subconscious Mind From Years Of Damage

''Whatever we plant in our subconscious mind and nourish with repetition and emotion will one day become a reality.''

Happy Sunday loves!
What are you guys up to for the day?
On my part, I woke up early (like every other day actually) to take a walk in the beautiful nature before the world fully wakes up!
Early mornings are no doubt my favorite part of the day!

What do you regularly plant in the garden of your mind?
Flowers or weeds?
A mixture of both?

When I first started to heal my traumas and emotional wounds that stem from my childhood, I decided to take a look into my old journals.
I was lucky enough to have documented many periods of my life.
A constant I have noticed is that throughout the years, no matter what would go on in my life, I remained more or less suicidal.
Some periods were much more intense than others, but it was always a thought that would stay in the back of my mind.
I also wrote many many times how unfair life was, and that it should not be, because all I did was being kind, and got shit thrown at my face in spite of it.

I knew for a fact that this is no longer how I wanted to feel internally.
Beginnings are always the hardest, especially when you want to repair something that you've been doing your whole life.
Nevertheless, I did not lose hope and decided to take it day by day.

Today officially marks the 7th month since I started my gratitude journal!
An average of 210 days of writing every night, three things I was grateful for that day.
Today also marks the 5th month since I have started my reframing journal, and the list of things that make me proud about myself each month.
Gratitude really made a difference in my attitude!
Scientific studies have shown that practicing gratitude affects our brain's reward system.
What better reason than to start now!✨

You may already have heard that 90% of what we do comes from our subconscious mind.
In other words, 10% of our conscious mind works against 90% of our subconscious.
The biggest part of what we do on our day to day existence comes from below our conscious awareness.
And unless we become aware of it, our subconscious will keep on ruling our lives, and many times, not in the most desirable way.

Our brain is implicated in every thing we do.
Each thought, thing we hear, see, what we choose to feed our mind and body with, every little thing, as trivial as it may seem, matter.
And if we repeat these things over and over again (whether consciously or not), they slowly become conditioned into our subconscious mind.

As you may know, meditation has played a crucial role in my training program for changing my inner world, and the toxic way by which my mind has operated my whole life.
As harmless as some thoughts may seem, they contribute to build our inner world, which then directly impacts our personal reality.

Earlier, I mentioned how I have been using a reframing journal for the past five months to date.
Albert Ellis, one of the most renowned psychologists of the 20th century, was the person who inspired me to do so.
He uses the ABCD reframing method to change how we feel and view an unpleasant event that has happened to us.
What I personally have been doing is that each time a significantly unpleasant situation comes up, I write down a brief resume of what went down, how I reacted in the moment, how I could have improved my immediate reaction, and (as hard as it can sometimes be) I try to find something good about this.

This is really a powerful exercise, and I have noticed how positively it has affected my mind from doing it consistently.
Patience is a simple word of 8 letters, but its application isn't quite so!
However, patience was the tool that has helped me to stick with these habits in the long run.

Ever since I changed things around in my life, I started to practice something new.
To give you an example, I have a very sensitive skin.
And unfortunately for me, this summer I had a breakout of poison ivy, after 10 years of being free from it.
It started when I was on vacation (which was such a bummer, not gonna lie).
As much as the itch and the pain was intense, was I going to let these bad boys ruin my vacay?
I chose not to.
This is where the hardest part came into the picture.
Just like I would do if I had bunch of mosquitos eating me alive, I tricked my mind into thinking that this was my new normal.
That focusing on the pain was only going to make it worse.
So I would thank the pain for letting me know it was there, and giving me a sign (as annoying and painful as it was) that my body functions properly.
I can't say it was easy, but I can definitely say that it changed how my mind felt about it.

Everything starts and ends in the mind.
If you want a different outcome in your life, you can't think the same way you've always been thinking, act the same way you've acted for the past 10 years, and expect a different result.
For instance, if you want to install more positivity in your mind, you will first need to feed your mind with more positive experiences.
That can happen by practicing gratitude every day, surrounding yourself with people who lift your spirits and inspire you, meditating, using self-compassion toward yourself and others...
Nonetheless, it surely won't happen if you watch the news every day like you've have for the past 5 years, host a pity party with your friends every night, and blame the world for being so dark and ugly.

Thank you so much for taking your time to read me!💜
I will leave you on my gift of the day!
I was lucky enough that he'd let me get this close to him!
(I used a secret method though😉)
Love you guys! Enjoy your Sunday !💜💚